This blog details my story leading to a penile implant (IPP). Anyone that has questions or concerns feel free to contact me.
My story I call "One Mans Journey" is in the January archive.

If you would like to tell your story email it to me and I will be glad to post it.


Friday, June 5, 2015


I was chatting with a gentleman that Dr. Milam did his implant last May. Like so many of us his wife was not thrilled with the prospect of him having implant surgery. There is so much on the internet about implants that is false or problems due to the surgery being done by less than qualified doctors.
His wife told him if it would make him happy to go ahead. She went with him for his consultation and Dr. Milam answered her questions, still she was skeptical. He went ahead and had the surgery.
He told me the other night his wife told him how thrilled she was he went ahead and had the implant. It has renewed there love live. They were talking about before he started having problems and now and she told him he felt just the same now as before he started having problems. They are both thrilled with the outcome.
For myself my wife and I had about the same talk. I told her I was doing it for us, she looked at me with those beautiful green eyes, as only she can, and I had to admit I was doing it for myself. She said that is what she wanted to hear and go ahead.  After I had the implant for a few months I asked her how I felt to her now. She said I feel the same as I always did. It is like we became young lovers again.
A 24 year old single young man had an implant for peyroies with hour glassing and venous leakage. He was so afraid that the girls would reject him he did not try to date for several months. At about 16 months a old girlfriend came back into his life and basically seduced him. He called me just as he was going to the motel to meet her and asked me what should he do. I told him to just be yourself and put her butt on a pillow for sex. About an hour and a half later he called back on top of the world. He said she told him he was the best she ever had and had 4 orgasms. She also admitted to being with about 8 men since she last saw him. About 2 weeks later she went back to her husband "for sake of the kids."
That weekend he meet another girl at a local club an set up a date for the next night. That evening they were sitting on the couch and she started trying to get into his pants. He told her WHOA there is something you need to know. She asked what? He told her he was BIONIC. She asked what that meant. He had made up a story about a 4 wheeler accident and told her he was in an accident and had to have an implant. She told him she wanted to be with him anyway. The next morning he called me again on top of the world. She also told him he was the best she ever had, even her former boyfriend with a 9" penis.  He has also been with several other girls and all have told him they enjoyed the sex with him.
I also know another gentleman that was divorced after he got his implant. He started dating and has been with about 11 other women. None turned him down and all were happy with the sex.
Now because of my cancer treatments I have lost almost over 60 pounds. The first of the year I was about 235 pounds. Dr. Milam told me at my one year check up that if I lost 20-30 pounds I would gain about another inch. I'm now 170 pounds and sure enough I have gained over an inch in length. My wife and I were talking and she said I still feel the same as before that the length did not matter. The fact is women get the most pleasure from foreplay an penile girth.  


This story is about the worst case of botched implants I know of. 

A gentleman from North Carolina contacted me some time ago about what to expect. He was having an implant by a surgeon at a North Carolina VA hospital. It was done by a new surgeon. His first problem was the pump was stitched so high he could not use it. The doctor refused to help telling him everything was fine. The pump should never be stitched down!
Long story. He has now had 9, yes nine, implant attempts. Some at VA hospitals and some at outside hospitals and doctors the VA sent him to. He battled the VA from the first bad implant trying to get them to send him to Dr. Douglas Milam at Vanderbilt.
He finally got to Dr. Milam this week. To say he has a lot of surgical damage is an understatement. The last doctor, in Alabama, even cut his suspensory ligament, but denies it.
I can't tell you all the emotional and physical damage this has caused him.
Dr. Milam gave him hope of a usable erection. He will have surgery in September. A perfect result is not possible because of the botched 9 surgeries over the last 3+- years.

A lot of Dr. Milam's practice is helping men that other doctors messed up. Now Dr. Milam is the only doctor in the world that can help him.

Conclusion: Make sure the doctor you use does about 100 implants a year. Watch out on the internet about doctors with unrealistic claims and use pictures of  "well endowed" men to show results of there work. We all these doctors "self promoters."    

On a personal note: It has been about 7 years since my implant. It is still working well.
I am still fighting the effect of lung cancer. Right now it is in remission. I'm on a chemo break but still very anemic and weak. I miss my energy. Since February 2014 I have had 16 chemo's and 6 units of blood. At one point I lost 70 pounds but have regained to 195 and hope to stay there. The Murino has helped with my apatite. My main meal of the day is now breakfast.  My wife and I prepare breakfast together every morning. We have learned to "dance around" each other as I do one thing and she another.

I am not currently on any of the forums but still respond to emails. If you have questions I will be more than happy to respond, it may take me a few days, depending on how I feel.

My email is


Tuesday, December 9, 2014

I have somethime better than Viagra

The end of October we planned a trip to Alabama for my nephew's wedding. My Oncologist told us to go and "have a good time." He offered a prescription for Viagra. I told him, "Doc I have something better than Viagra." He asked what? I told him about the implant. He smiled and said for us to "have a good time." WE DID !!!

 When I was released from the hospital I had a drain in my side and home health nurses for about 6 weeks. When I started chemo I could hardly walk and had to use a wheel chair. After getting the nausea under control I started to feel some better. The chemo also caused severe anemia. 
When I had moments that I felt a little better I began to inflate my implant. Daily inflation gave me a feeling of being normal again. My primary doctor also kept my testosterone level high to help.
Let me say it loud and clear. Being able to have an erection gave me strength and hope. A loving and caring wife also made a big difference.  Thanks to the implant we were able to start back making love after a few weeks. My wife did everything to make me feel wanted and needed. I was and am very weak and she made sure I had enough stimulation for intercourse.
Bottom Line: After almost a year my energy level is low and the anemia keeps me down. The "chemo effect" can come over me most any time and take all my strength. That said every night I can inflate my implant and feel normal. Our sex life has returned to almost normal (4-6 times a month.) The love and care I receive from my Beautiful Green Eyed Wife has been an important part of my recovery. 
Having the implant keeps our love life normal. Without it I doubt I could function.
Yes I follow my own advice and inflate my implant every day. Being able to have an erection is both emotionally and physically healing.
I have not posted on the blog for some time. I keep getting emails and am glad that I am now able to answer them and answer your questions.  I will have "maintenance chemo", with breaks, to keep the cancer from coming back and/or spreading. For me the fact I have the implant keeps me feeling normal.
Jackp (email)


I have not posted here since February when I was diagnosed with cancer in the lining of my left lung. I have been undergoing intense chemo and now glad to report that my cancer no longer shows up on x-ray or CT. My last chemo was October 30. I will now have maintenance chemo starting January 8th. The chemo has left me very anemic and I had to have 2 units of blood twice. The break in chemo will give me a chance to recuperate.

At first I was not able to respond to email's but I have for the last several weeks. If I missed yours or anything I can do to help please send me an email again. My email is

To my friends that have sent me regards and prayed for me I thank you from the bottom of my heart. PRAYER WORKS :-)


Thursday, February 6, 2014

Loss of Penile Size

The number one complaint heard by urologist from men with peyronies is loss of penile size. It also happens with men that underwent prostate cancer surgery and other surgeries. It is very emotional for men. This is an article I published on a forum a couple of years ago.

Lost Penile Size

We guys obsess about our penis our ladies are just glad to be with us no matter what. Like I have told many a young man “The size of your penis does not make you a man.”

The beautiful green-eyed lady I have been married to over 45 years, (no she is not blond), has been with me through all my journey with peyronies, venous leakage, corporal fibrosis. Then a failed implant attempt. Now a successful implant. The one statement she made still brings joy to my life. “Jack, I did not marry you for your penis.” She was by my side through my journey.

I lost over 1-½ inches to peyronies. It concerned me but never bothered her. When I came out of surgery at Vanderbilt she had already talked with Dr. Milam. I saw that gleam in those beautiful green eyes and knew all was well.

The first night I was home after my implant was activated I lay on my back with a hard on sticking straight up, no pills, no shots just me. I was still 1 ½ “ shorter than before peyronies but it did not matter anymore.

Over the last 5 years I have been able to gain about 90% of the loss back because of the skills of Dr. Milam and the LGX. I asked her how if felt sexually now than before. She told me she never noticed the difference I feel just the same as always.

Guys, we have to stop obsessing over our problems. The women that love us don’t care about the size or shape of our penis. That is a man thing. They love us for the man we are.

I have had the privilege of talking with many men that have progressed to the stage I have with this mess I have. One single young man kept telling me I can’t a girl will reject me. I can’t I have lost too much size to satisfy her, just on and on. Well 2 months ago (November 2011) he meets a young lady and it was love at first sight for her. One evening after a date he was with her and she started trying to get in his pants. He told her WHOA!! You need to know something. She asked what? He told her “I’m Bionic.” She asked what did that mean; he briefly told her he had an implant. She told him I don’t care I want you anyway.

That night he learned a couple of things. The fact he had an implant did not matter, the size of his penis did not matter, that he could satisfy her and he could go longer than any guy his age. Since then they have been almost constant companions.

What I am trying to say is we cannot let this damn disease get us down. There is help and hope for all of us. Love the lady you are with and she will give you more than you ever expected. The most important thing is NEVER – EVER / NEVER – EVER / NEVER – EVER EVER GIVE UP.

Just my feeling this morning.


Reprint from my post on another forum a couple of years ago.

Friday, December 13, 2013

Floppy Head (Glans)

Floppy Head (Glans) was the most common complaint I found when researching implants.

The discussion came up recently and this is a copy of emails with Todd Doran at Vanderbilt.

Sent: Tuesday, December 03, 2013 2:23 PM
To: Doran, Todd James
Subject: Floppy Head


A gentleman I have been in contact with went to and implant surgeon Monday. He has not had peyronies, prostate cancer or any other penile shortening problems. Just ED from venous leakage that the pills are of little help. His gitth is just slightly smaller than normal at just under 1 1/2" diamiter. About 4.33 inch girth. When he told the doctor he would like a little more girth he recommended the Titan. He asked about all the stories we hear about "Floppy Head" from men that do not have the length expanding implant. He basicially skirted the issue and told him to just pull the skin back.

Your thoughts.'


RE: Floppy Head
Doran, Todd James


SST deformity (penis looks like the Concorde SST plane erect), aka floppy glans is a phenomena where the terminal end of the corporal body ends proximal (before) to the glans. This can occur in any penis and can be congenital (born with) or acquired through scarring events such as Peyronie's or the aftermath from a priapism episode. We see this in our LGX population rarely and I think in 10 years we've provided an operative fix maybe three times and really is the only way to correct the situation. I can see the advantage of a device like an LGX providing that needed support as it expands distally and circumferentially. Interesting that the forum talks about that advantage as being real. Clinical experience has demonstrated to me that girth improves as the years go by and rigidity improves with LGX.

I do agree that Titan gives a rigid shaft and I can see where someone would see a more rapid girth difference immediately postop. Problem is that it is less likely to change over time due to the mechanical properties of the device and if there is an SST deformity then it will probably stay that way but the risk should be low if performed by a high volume surgeon which is really the key. Hope that was helpful.


Todd J. Doran, MS, PA-C, DFAAPA
Senior Associate in Urologic Surgery
Vanderbilt University
Dept of Urologic Surgery
A-1302 MCN
Nashville, TN 37232

Thursday, August 1, 2013




The most common complaint Male Sexual Function Specialist hears is shortening of the penis.

From Mayo Clinic Staff
Peyronie's (pa-ro-NEEZ) disease is the development of fibrous scar tissue inside the penis that causes curved, painful erections.
Men's penises vary in shape and size, and having a curved erection is common and isn't necessarily a cause for concern. However, in some men, Peyronie's disease causes a significant bend or pain. This can prevent a man from having sex or may make it difficult to get or maintain an erection (erectile dysfunction). For many men, Peyronie's disease also causes stress and anxiety.
In some cases, medications may help. Surgery to treat Peyronie's disease is generally only recommended if the curvature and pain are severe enough to prevent sexual intercourse.

Peyronie's disease symptoms may appear suddenly or may develop gradually. The most common signs and symptoms include:
· Scar tissue. The scar tissue (plaques) associated with Peyronie's disease can be felt under the skin of the penis as flat lumps or a band of hard tissue.
· A significant bend to the penis. Your penis may be curved upward, downward or bent to one side. In some cases, the erect penis has an "hourglass" appearance, with a tight, narrow band around the shaft.
· Erection problems. Peyronie's disease may cause problems getting or maintaining an erection (erectile dysfunction).
· Shortening of the penis. Your penis may become shorter as a result of Peyronie's disease.
· Pain. You may have pain during an erection, only during an orgasm or anytime your penis is touched.
The curvature associated with Peyronie's disease may gradually worsen. At some point, it generally stops getting worse. In most men, pain during erections improves within one to two years but the scar tissue and curvature remain. Rarely, both the curvature and pain associated with Peyronie's disease improve without treatment.
When to see a doctor
See your doctor if pain or curvature of your penis prevents you from having sex or causes you anxiety. An accurate diagnosis is needed to determine whether treatment may help and to rule out other causes of your symptoms.
The day before implant surgery with modeling by Dr. Douglas Milam at Vanderbilt in Nashville TN. A 24 year old single young man had peyronies with hour glassing and ED. Erections would only last a few seconds.
His surgery was an implant with the AMS 700 LGX and modeling.
Two months after implant surgery and modeling by Dr. Douglas Milam at Vanderbilt in Nashville TN.
With the AMS 700 LGX implant and modeling he has now regained to within 1cm of his normal penile size. The LGX is the only implant that expands in both length and girth. CAUTUON: a very skilled Male Sexual Function Specialist that does about 100 a year should only do this surgery. Only less than 4 or 5 qualified doctors worldwide.
He now has a normal sex life and many girl friends. The girls tell him he is the best they ever had.
Pictures used with permission.